.Tuesday, June 19, 2007 ' 8:19 PM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted
hees xD long time no blogg. sorry :X and theres soooooo many ppl to link and relink. oh gosh. im sorry. xD will do it after THIS post. i swear and i promise (:
life's getting on well. 'coz its just liddat. nothing much of special events to spice up my holiday life. nobody contacted me ..i contacted no one. hees. ya. and i look forward to school reopen coz i wanna see HER. its my darling..kuan xD. i wanna see HIM too. ohh. i wanna see my "nan peng you" xue wei too lol. although i can get to see her tomorrow..its like. sigh. im not feeling well larh. so i can't attend tomorrow's parade. oh crap. ): and i definitely miss kuan lian. thats for sure. who knows..maybe i'll be meeting her on thursday. im not too sure about that. as for HIM. its been one week since i last saw him. more than that. hees. when school reopens, things would be different.
sigh. i realize im always sighing nowadays. am i really so stressed or even frustrated? im not sure. i'm tired of my life. i'm tired of trying hard to please others but to no avail. i'm tired of being the one lagging behind with hardly anyone to talk to. i have many friends. friends friends friends. but a true friend is hard to come by. a true friend who cares. who is willing to share will and woe together. be crazy together. have the same thoughts without saying them out. true friends. i used to have them. friends like shinfung. friends that can be cherished for life. until now..after im separated from shinfung..i have yet to come across a friend that is like her. someone who understands me. someone who knows me well from inside out. someone who can share my thoughts and feelings and troubles. maybe kuan can. most probably she is the one. i dont wanna be that kind of person who gets stuck with a clique and forget everyone. i wanna be good friends with everyone. nobody seems to care about my presence. whether im there or not. whether i can make a difference or not. whether i can lead or not. whatever. i may be somebody in the school that many recognizes, but i'm just a nobody to a friend. a person. any person. i may have a crush. but it can only be a CRUSH. it cannot get any firther from there. im not even sure if he knows that im there. even though we've talked..a few times..but its like does he know im there or not? or he had talked to me because he has to? i don't expect much out of this. but girls are girls right? they definitely harbour some hope on their crushes right..im negative about my crush. it will just end in a way that i do not like him anymore. its just liddat. always liddat.
